After completing the prior post, I realized there is something else taking place.

The document submission was completed early in the morning. This resulted in a gap. The gap was filled with the hike to the copy shop. Upon return home there was another encounter with a gap. I see Dr D tomorrow and I know she will ask me how things are going. So I need to provide an answer. Delivering this answer requires that I engage in self observation, and the creation of a summary.

During the hike to the copy shop, I contemplated the fact that I am performing identical actions to those performed 3 years ago. In December of 2012 I was creating a document in support of my injury claim. In August of 2015, I am once again creating a document in support of my injury claim. I still have an open and unsettled injury claim. I am still denied access to rehabilitative therapy because I have an unsettled claim. Having been denied access to a formal program of rehabilitation has forced me into the creation of my own program of rehabilitation.

What does my program consist of? The major element consists of significant amounts of aerobic exercise. I walk a daily average of seven miles, maintain a monthly mileage total in excess of 165 miles and have walked 490 miles since May of this year (the annual total would be higher. I do not have that figure at hand). This aerobic exercise forces blood perfusion of the brain.

The second component of my my rehabilitation program entails the consumption of brain friendly food. Lots of tuna, sardine, salmon, olive oil, fresh vegetables, omega-3 everything, lots of whole grains and sourdough, minimal meat and animal fats (but a daily avocado), zero hydrogenated fat or trans fat, zero industrial processed foodstuffs (ice cream excepted. And any cold treat is more likely to be frozen yogurt or sorbet). To derive the maximum benefit from these food stuffs, I provision my body with omega-3 and other brain nutrients before undertaking aerobic exercise. Exertion therefore results in fresh nutrients being introduced into my blood stream and being force fed to the brain by the exercise effort. I can feel neurons extending, axons exciting, and dendrites closing the gap as I walk. (That is a brain trauma survivor joke. You get the idea.)

The third component of my rehabilitative program consists of compulsive writing and documentation. I have this ostentatious belief that I can outwit my brain by watching it closely and observing the manner in which it operates. As I go about my daily interactions with the world, I become better aware of the unconscious processes that you, I, and every other sentient being on the planet, takes for granted, processes that we falsely identify as “me” when in fact no objective referent for the word “me” can be found to exist. “Me” results from the process of filling the gap.

Update

As of five minutes ago, my gap filling function has been operational for 63 years.