No Hope

This post is an attempt to unpack my present experience which is best characterized as one of “No Hope.” I meet with Dr. H later today and I want to ask her for help. My difficulty is that I lack a satisfactory problem definition. What does “No Hope” actually mean? What am I attempting to communicate with that phrase?
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Blog Therapy

I recognize the prior post as an excellent example of Blog Therapy. When I encounter psychological difficulty, I write a blog post. The blog is my Linus blanket.

I use the blog as a way to understand my changed world. It allows me to explore events, to explain them, anchor them, and place them within a cognitive framework that encompasses all the injury after effects. The blog is less a narrative and more a set of minor diagnostic routines applied each time my world bends out of shape, or when I fail to conform.
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Numeric Therapy

I have attempted to duplicate the positive aspects of this blog by what I call “Numeric Therapy.” In the Spring of 2013, Dr. H advised me to return to blogging for therapeutic benefit. I had a dormant development site I used on an intermittent basis as a beta site, a location to test code, and a way to remain current on developments in HTML, js, css, and php.

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