I feel myself giving up. I am not sure how to address this.

Before I go to see one of my Doctors, I will write out an “inventory” of the issues I wish to discuss. When I read through the past list of issues, and the dates, I observe a sequence of events, and discoveries, each of which has had a significant impact.

Since posting on the Blog Hiatus, I have experienced a series of small psychic detonations, a slow cascade of revelation, and insight. This insight provided the motive and the trigger for the subsequent extended series of blog posts.

What I now sense is that I am running out of steam. I once held the belief that insight would open a pathway to recovery, that insight itself might have curative properties. That simply gaining an understanding of the issues would be sufficient to dispel them, diminish them, vanquish them.

I am losing that belief.

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Update June 15th 2014
This post was heavily edited and rewritten. My poor state of mind was evident in the writing.