Today is a day in which the world collapsed in on me.
I do not fully understand this. My current experience seems so out of line with the positive sense I had on completing yesterday’s complex and wordy post.
Yesterday was a difficult day.
I woke from a dream of obtaining work. That thought fell away like a collapsing mirage and I was left facing fact. Today dawned grey and wet, the sky echoing with drumbeats of thunder. After waking, I lay still and listened to the endless beat and slosh of rain and found myself enumerating brain injury impacts. As best I understand them the impacts are these.
The crowd swirls around me, a kaleidoscope of people, all of them in motion, the space filled with sounds of chatter and movement. In the midst of this bustle and hubbub a man stands up above the rest and yells out “Who wants a job?” I strive to push through the crush of people, make myself noticed, make myself heard. “I do!” I shout in reply.