I have detailed one outcome of being bullied and ostracized as a child. In an effort to fit in and be accepted as a member of the group, I sought to achieve a high standard of performance. This was based on my need to fit it in. Since my physical performance was inadequate, I attempted to compensate on other dimensions. I needed to find a way to be judged equal to everyone else lest I run the risk of being cast out and abandoned. Or worse – be made the target of attack.
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Happy Birthday!
This is my son. We are on a beach, hunting for clams and other wet and squiggly things. It was late winter and the world was very cold.
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A Fighter
In one of my meetings with Dr D, she said that I was a fighter. I believe that was the word she used; my memory may be in error.
She was making reference to the fact that I am actively engaged in trying to get better. This is in contrast to a patient who is entirely passive, one who simply submits to the injury condition and makes little attempt at improvement.
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