The prior blog post was post number 100. It has taken me 349 days to complete 100 posts, a rate of one post every three and one half days. The above image is not truly a self portrait. It is an attempt at humour (I have wanted to use this image for some time but could never really identify an appropriate post). The blog itself functions as a self portrait.

I am uncertain of the picture painted by this self portrait.

I still have fatigues and headaches. One is growing now in its standard location on the left side of my head, above the ear. I have been working for four hours researching outreach for the TBI Proposal and, if the headache persists, I will need to stop work.

I remain forgetful. Left the house this morning and forgot my hat, forgot to take out the garbage, forgot something else. For Saturday dinner I made soup and forgot I had made soup stock on Friday. I used water for the soup but if the home made stock is not used within four days it will go bad. Plus, the stock makes for a better, more flavourful, and nutritious soup. Discovered I had first communicated with an outreach contact on Feb 8th and had failed to follow up until May 7th. I thought this had been a two week interlude, not a full two months. Then I discovered I had been in contact with this same individual in 2012 and somehow completely missed this fact. And I now realize that my request to him is ambiguous and likely not helpful.

After a year I am still embroiled with the insurance company. I am now waiting on an assessment from Dr L. I do not feel I have achieved very much. I am trying to avoid getting down on myself as it is not productive.

I keep telling myself that I have made “progress.” That may be true, but I have great difficulty in describing that progress. My “progress” may be nothing more than wishful thinking. I am stunned that I once had the notion that I might generate an income from this blog.

I do think I take better photographs but I attribute this change to a relaxation of my prior uptight standards rather than to any degree of improvement in my abilities. Previously, I had a narrow “technical” definition of what constituted a good photograph. Due to the injury, I have forgotten that definition and the images have changed for the better.

I believe I have a greater abilities in written communication. I found some long form text written shortly after the accident and I am embarrassed to read it. I am also embarrassed to acknowledge I sent it out to others in an attempt to generate employment.

I am thankful to Dr H for recommending that I attempt to blog about my experience. This blog has proved very helpful in delivering both structure and insight. And I owe a great deal to both Dr H and Dr D for all their help and support. I’d wish them both “Happy 100th” if that were not wildly inappropriate.

I remain very slow in all of my actions. When I spend the better part of a day making soup stock that is a day not devoted to other things. I have a long list of “other things” that need my attention. Somehow I never get round to them. I have sought to give first priority to medical / dental issues, with tasks related to earning an income having next highest priority. The blog counts as part of the latter category as I realize my skills atrophy quickly if not utilized regular basis. The blog also serves both as a record of my activity, and as a context, a way to structure my day.