I am still very down and fighting to understand the reason. I had an earlier phase which was similar but with a known cause. In the prior case, I paid a lawyer between $15,000 and $20,000 dollars to seek medical attention on my behalf. He circulated my insurance file to a number of Doctors, each of whom declined to treat me.

In the middle of last month, I discovered the insurance file distributed to prospective doctors contained materials defamatory of me. I was unaware of this at the time. When I found out, there was an immediate depressive reaction. I climbed out of that black hole with the help of Dr. H. I cannot remember what she said, or did, that brought about the resolution.

In May, I was of the optimistic belief that I would be able to complete the TAQ submissions in June. I worked very hard at this. I did not meet my self-imposed deadline.

Heat created one problem. A second problem came from completing all of the Section 2 Items found in the November 2015 End of Month Review. A third issue, the one that caused the greatest amount of delay, resulted from close textual analysis of previously submitted evidence. I found I faced false evidence, incomplete evidence, highly misleading evidence. Handling this was difficult for me.

On August 7th, I filed a further batch of TAQ submissions. During walks (I take walks both as a heat antidote and as a means of promoting understanding. Ideas and solutions come to me during the walks that do not seem to come to me during the regular work day), I found myself discomforted by the fact that I was nearing the end of the TAQ submission project. It was the same sense one might have when saying goodbye to a good friend for the last time. There was a sense of loss I remain unable to fully unpack.

Late on Sunday night, or in the cool wee hours of Monday morning, I responded to telephone voice mail. One of these messages was from TAQ. TAQ is scheduling a hearing on September 21st at 0930 to hear a motion I presented a year ago with respect to a production motion calling upon the insurer to deliver a copy of a witness statement held by them. In the discussion with TAQ, I asked about the future hearing date for rendering a final decision. I was told this date has yet to be set. TAQ is presently still attempting to close out case hearings from the 2014 time period.

This news staggered me. I was of the belief that my slow response, my inability to quickly create submissions, was what was causing the delay. This is the reason I pushed so hard. I thought I was holding things up, that the Tribunal was being generous with me, allowing me all of the time I needed. I now learn that five years from the date of the accident, I have no idea when this matter will be brought to a close.

For five years now, I have been burning through retirement savings and borrowed funds in order to stay alive. I do not know how much longer I can continue. I do not see what other option I have.

And all of this is due to the fact that I did nothing more than drive to work and be rear-ended by a speeding motorist. He has been indemnified by the state. He suffered no injury, no inconvenience, no loss of his capacities, experienced no change, no life upsets, no forced need to relearn all of the details of living a life.