Forest and the Trees

I have this sense of not being able to see the forest because all the trees are in the way. And immediately after writing the previous sentence I went to make coffee and ended up spilling most of the kettle over the kitchen floor. I do not know precisely how I did that but it is more or less typical. I go to perform some very simple action and I botch it and end up feeling totally incompetent. This is one problem. But I have others.
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Having a lot of problems. Realize that I am falling into a slump of despair and that I need to work hard to climb out of this, change trajectory, stop the decline.

I need to arrive at an understanding of what and why. Somehow that is too complicated. I realize that writing this blog is a form of lifeline to me. I need to continue with it.
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