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A Form of Superstition

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I am afraid to even mention the pain. It is a form of superstition, the belief that to think about the pain will bring about a recall. I do not want to go there. At the same time, I want to document the experience.

In January, I went to see Dr N. He thought there might be some relationship to something that shows up on the C1 C2 vertebrae. Another more detailed MRI scan was performed and that came back negative. There were a few severe jolts yesterday but today the pain has slithered back to whatever dungeon it emerges from.
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Sleep Science

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My sleep science serves two very different goals. On the one hand it Is a positive, rational response to the fact of my injury. It grants me new insight into my behaviour and physiology. It also entails a great deal of work. This work serves as an avoidance mechanism and prevents me from completing documentation in regard to Dr. X.

I met with Dr. D on Friday and referred to this documentation effort as akin to putting my head back in the Cuisinart. That is what it feels like. The demand for total concentration on a single sustained effort that pushes all else out of the picture as I force myself to complete the work that is necessary.
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