Today, I woke at noon after being up until 0400. There were sufficient TAQ project breadcrumbs to quickly reactivate, and get stuck into, adding more text to the draft TAQ summary. I was deeply absorbed in this work until the onset of fatigue. An incipient left side headache reared up and declared itself right at the four hour mark. Say what you want, the “fatigue clock” maintains impeccable timing. The work was abandoned when I went for a forced nap.
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Stopped on a Tightrope
02:51:38
Unable to sleep. Somewhat surprised at this as I developed fatigue headache due to the resumption of the TAQ submission process. Went to bed relatively early and have been lying awake with this uncomfortable sense of being stopped on a tightrope suspended high above some chasm. This is not a dream state. It is my perception of my world as I lie in the dark attempting to summon sleep.
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Five Year Anniversary
Up 0830
Difficulty sleeping last night. Realized it was the five year anniversary of injury. Minds eye kept cycling through events from the night of the accident. Also reflected further on last week’s meeting with Dr D. Now believe that her introduction of the “random universe” was an attempt to bring me to a state of equanimity over the injury outcomes. During the meeting, I responded with some knowledge in regard to the Existentialists, notably Camus. It has taken me more than four days to understand the probable intent of her remarks. Call me slow and addled.
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