Rowing Upstream

Dr H has recommended that I keep up with this blog project. She feels that it has therapeutic benefits. I feel like I am rowing upstream and being constantly swept back by the current.

I have spent much of the past month wrapped up in making submissions to one medical body or another. I have this sense of progress due to the effort involved. But if I look at past documentation I discover that the problems I faced then are the same as those I face today. There has been little to no change.
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First Prospect Pitch

Tonight I sent out my first communication in regards to Facticity. My first pitch to a prospective  —  I am not sure what term to use here. They would not be a client. Or a sponsor. I am not even sure they would qualify as a participant. I have no rules, or guidelines, for any of these entities; no definitions have been formulated.
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Photography After

This was a forced entry. As was the post immediately prior to this one. Somehow the joy went out of the act of writing like air leaving a punctured tire. Pfffft. And it was gone. All gone.

I sensed it at the time. I knew there was something wrong. I did not know what it was. I did not have enough sense of myself to react, or correct, or respond. I just went Pfffft.
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